| forgot about this old thing |
[04 Aug 2007|09:54pm] |
| [ |
mood |
| |
 contemplative |
] |
| [ |
music |
| |
kenny chesney |
] |
In my mind there something more
And I'll open up a brand new door
And find the strength to close the ones I left behind
I'll get there leaning on some friends I know
The road and the radio.
i love how music can explain the things you need to say the most. i just wish i was creative enough to put my words together into something beautiful.
being content isnt good enough. secrets and lies hold me back from the life i want to lead. people are not who you think they are and thats how it will always be, ive come to realize this. im in this transition phase in my life where i want to either go back and do things over or move forward and skip this bullshit that i deal with on a daily basis. i feel like i just want to grow up have a family and move on with my life. but before any of that happends i need to meet a man, go to school blah blah blah...but why cant it all jsut happen sooner? im getting anxious..i feel anxious a lot.
who knows why i decided to come here and say all of this, maybe because i know no one will really want to listen to this because i just sound lame..or maybe because this is my comfort...whateverrrrr
|
|
| every damn time... |
[22 Jun 2006|10:44am] |
| [ |
mood |
| |
 intimidated |
] |
| [ |
music |
| |
the fray |
] |
Will you won’t you, be the one I always know
i guess ill never learn...
|
|
| realization. |
[10 Apr 2006|12:29am] |
and suddenly I become a part of your past
im becoming the part that dont last
im losing you and its effortless..
school is almost over...summer is almost here. and could it be any better? no. but then why do i still feel like this. why do nights like last night make things so confusing? why cant i just not do/say stupid things...
time to get over it, ok.
i need someone to cuddddllleeee with :) ha
im out bitches.
<3
|
|
| sometimes perfection can be perfect hell |
[24 Feb 2006|06:36pm] |
| [ |
mood |
| |
contemplative |
] |
| [ |
music |
| |
jm |
] |
im so confused.
i have been thinking...a lot. crazy how things can change isnt it? its so weird how different things become when someone is gone. i just dont understand, and i probly never will.
this time i dont know who to listen to. everything seems easier said than done - isnt that how it always goes though?
so many things remind me of you.
::i swear i didnt mean for it to feel like this, like every inch of me is bruised...bruised::
lets do lunch- no, seriously. :-)
<3katie
|
|
|
[11 Feb 2006|01:19pm] |
| [ |
mood |
| |
 annoyed |
] |
| [ |
music |
| |
the hard way |
] |
i need to stop lying to myself.
|
|
|
[19 Jan 2006|09:49pm] |
| [ |
mood |
| |
 indescribable |
] |
| [ |
music |
| |
Of A Revolutiiiion |
] |
hmmm...first of all i would like to say FUCK YOU BDUBS. whatever, i know the truth.
trying to keep my head on right.
so much going on.
hearing my mom talk about aunt kimmy and what is going to happen makes me want to scream so i dont have to hear it. i cant handle this happening. its not possible...its SO bizzare. so fucked up!
besides that major part of my life.... :-/
school is going good. i know i am going to do awesome this semmester...i dont care if it has only been 2 weeks...i just know. heh.
i love how much easier life became after i realized my faults and what i needed to work on. i am me. i am not you. i live for ME...not for you. i thought that i needed to defend myself in every situation...but now i feel that if you are going to talk, if you are going to dedicate so much of your life trying to hurt me-then thats your problem, not mine anymore. i dont give a shit. im so happy i had that mental break down the other week...it really helped me focus on doing better, and enjoying life. im just striving to get the hell out of here :) and thats what it really comes down to.
live your life for you.
yesterday made today seem like such a pretty day. days like this are what make me happy.
if only i wasnt such a BROKE ass.
<3
|
|
| caught up in the fight of your life |
[15 Jan 2006|06:13pm] |
| [ |
mood |
| |
 envious |
] |
| [ |
music |
| |
o.a.r. |
] |
redooo.
nice try.
i cant wait till febuary tenth...esil tgjertu;g;eriopg;ud9r vkn i CANT WAAAIIT
update on life for everyone- i will be ok...
when i come here i realize all over again how much i love life in general. how much i love my family, and the few wonderful friends i trust with my life. i realize that its all ok. i come here to get a way for a while and see the people i love. and when i go home, sure i miss them, and i miss this...but i have memories and inspirations to make me happy when i dont think i can do it anymore. iloveit.
please pray for my aunt.
i have to help josie clean now, so have a good week everyone.
<3<3
|
|
|
[08 Jan 2006|10:50pm] |
| [ |
mood |
| |
 melancholy |
] |
| [ |
music |
| |
you got me good |
] |
i hate it when reality sets in after trying to hide from it all along...dodging the truth of the matter every chance i got. just sitting here thinking...its pretty hard to hide now.
fuck.
i need to do something. i need this to change. it all needs to change. i need to stop trusting so easily(i should have learned by now) and i need to be more independent. i depend on other people for my happiness, and i depend on other people for me being me. stop. i need to stop. if this year is anything like 2005 i will rip my hair out. im tired of this.
your attempt at trying to hurt my feelings, failed. it only made me laugh at you.
i want to be able to make it on my own.
son of a bitch. i gave too much credit, where it shouldnt have been given at all.
ihate bdubs.
ilove the "hussies".
ilove the Kotharies...haha.
ihate you for making me feel like this.
ilove this song.
ihate you for thinking "its" stupid. :( not hate...but am mad at...well not even made at. just... i dunno haha
im tired. work tomorrow, then SCHOOL-math class. woooo.
<3katie
|
|
|
[20 Dec 2005|11:32pm] |
hahahahaha..
that makes me laugh. :)
ilovemyfamily
i think i fell in love with the all american rejects this weekend. maaaannn.
any plans for new years eve? man nothing sounds exciting. last year i new it was going to be fun, and it was amazing. this year im pretty sure it wont be that exciting. hopefully things change.
<3
lemmmmeee know whats goin on.
xo
|
|
| closure...? |
[13 Dec 2005|11:10pm] |
| [ |
mood |
| |
 gloomy |
] |
| [ |
music |
| |
all american rejects |
] |
everything was nearing perfect...until tonight.
|
|
| goooooooooooooooood karma. |
[04 Dec 2005|10:20pm] |
| [ |
mood |
| |
 curious |
] |
| [ |
music |
| |
Guster |
] |
CMU= myfav.
i had unexplainable amounts of fun last night. i love my friends, i love these amazing people who love me.
Me: leah you need to marry brady, i want to be your sister!!!
Leah: AWE, well im not going to marry brady but you can still be my SISTER!
:) haha funnnnn
Crazy bitch: what the hell were you talking to my boyfriend about?
Ami: umm i just told him that my friend peed her pants...
lolololol.
im glad frenchi gave that girl a beat down...seriously, wtf.
::sexy librarian::
::cute crack::
::skeetskeetskeeeeet::
::spoooooning :) ::
REAAD-you quite possible could be in here.
im so thankful for everyone i spent time with this weekend. jo you are an amazing person and i thankyou so much for always being there for me, and always having those wise words of wisdom that just make everything make sence. if it werent for you i would probly be so confused, and so insane right now. you understand me, honestly, and thats pretty much amazing. and i just cant wait till this summer/next year. it was so crazy how we were trying to get a whole weeks worth of information into one night, and we just had so many stories...i love your stories, and i love your art. you are fucking amazing. beautful, how come i didnt know this before? anyways, you already know i love you, but it doesnt hurt to say...even though you are secretly evil LOL ill always remember what you told me i should do, when we were at coney island...AHHHHH it would make things SO bad haha. Ami, last night, before we went to jakes, was fucking sweet. i had so much fun with you...im sorry everything was gay after, but things happen, at least the whole night wasnt shitty. im so happy that we are close again, i love hanging out with you, just doing nothing-pretending to do homework...haha. and david thank you for being like the most amazing brother in the whole ENTIRE world. i love you and i love how you care so much about people. wanna know how amazing it is when someone tells me that you are the most awesome guy and you are genuinely nice and caring? its sweet, because i know you will always be there for me because you are MY BIG BRO. im excited for break so you can be home. Mark and Leah i love how you guys are like my brother and sister. haha i love being with you guys, i have so much fun. Elisha and Alex....AHHHHHHHHHH I LOVE YOU GUYS, and alex sucks though cause she didnt come with us...lol still love her. Shane is a grumpy person, but i love him because he DROVE ME, i didnt have to walk muahahahaha. :) crazy pictures will be on my myspace sooooon. :) all in all, the moral of the story is that i should have gone to cmu...its my favorite.
iiiits funny when people delete things out of my phone. haha..not, lol. :-D
newports are gross.
so tomorrow, its back to school- and i am going to get bitched out... :-/ fuck fuck fuckkkkk!!! i hate schoool. hate occ.
my hair is growing on me. heh, hmmmmmm time heals all wounds.
well, im going to get going cause i have to wake up super early. hope all is well with everyone. comment, i miss everyone.
<3<3katie
|
|
|
[01 Dec 2005|02:03pm] |
AMI MCILROY. I AM NOT KIDDING, YOU ARE GOING. YOU ARE GOING TO GO AND YOU ARE GONNA HAVE FUN, YOU KNOOOOOOOOOOWWWW YOU WANT TO. lol yooooou'll regret it. :( :( :(
COME ONNN
<3 katie
|
|
| im going to end with this... |
[08 Nov 2005|08:45pm] |
| [ |
mood |
| |
contemplative |
] |
i've always loved this, and now it just seems appropriate..
you can play the game
and you can act out the part
but you know it wasnt written for you.
when everything hurts, and there isnt anyone that understands...what do you do? where do you go?
i dont want an explanation anymore, it doesnt matter to me anymore, considering...everything.
i miss you.
so this is probly my last entry...for a while anyways, i just feel like lj shouldnt be my place to vent anymore, its not a good place. thanks to you who read everything. haha.
much love <3
|
|
|
[26 Oct 2005|08:14pm] |
i suck at this whole, going to class thing.
damnit.
|
|
|
[15 Oct 2005|02:36pm] |
| [ |
mood |
| |
 content |
] |
| [ |
music |
| |
a little bit of this, a little bit of that! |
] |
i hate booooyyysssss.. haha
tonight, i am going to be strong. I am going to have will. I am not going to sell myself short. I will not give in. I will stand my ground. right? i hope so...
promises...pinky promises.
im not sorry
i love you
thank you
by my side
baypoint= getting tan
im scatterrrred
lets sit beneath the stars and look into each others eyes...k? haha
ill try to be the bestest friend that i can..k?
its better when were together..no?
dont you get ahead of me, and i wont leave you behind.
<3 Kate
|
|
|
[12 Oct 2005|08:00pm] |
| [ |
mood |
| |
 aggravated |
] |
| [ |
music |
| |
iron and wine |
] |
.4.5.6.15.
from me.to you
--i'd rather walk alone then chase you around
--i'd rather fall myself then let you drag me on down.
--it wouldnt have worked out anyway, and now its just another lonely day.
.its like im not here.
.i need something new to do.
.bdubds makes me have no personality.
.bdubds makes me sad now...its not fun.
.i wish josie was home, it would make things so much easier.
.i wish me and ami hung out more.
.i hate how everything is.
.when will it all just be ok?
.why is it so hard to forget someone even if they hurt you so bad?
.so is this routine i have ever going to become exciting...
.i miss my family, but at the same time i like this distance we all have from each other :-/ its horrible to say.
.going to state this weekend hopefully...and im not sure at all how that is going to go.
.i need to go.
byyye.
^katie
|
|
|
[06 Oct 2005|11:12pm] |
| [ |
mood |
| |
confused |
] |
| [ |
music |
| |
green eyes |
] |
man, you sure showed me.
heh.
going to central tomorrow, if anyone wants to ride up there with me...i would love the company.
Ami, you are awesome. i love you, and it felt so good tonight to do what i did. :) thankyou for being there to help me.
was it what you wanted? is this what you wanted to happen?
its not so bad. :)
i like my nose pierced, and for those of you who dont, i dont care...it makes me happy in a way lol.
READY TO GAMBLE...WOOOO haha
i miss your comments.
comment.
<3kate
|
|
|
[04 Oct 2005|04:01pm] |
| [ |
mood |
| |
uncomfortable |
] |
| [ |
music |
| |
eagles-best of my love |
] |
its all good.
howie day- sunday morning song. listen to it. buy the cd. you wont be dissapointed.
<3
some people just dont know when to stop. when its enough. when to just...deal.
|
|
|
[14 Aug 2005|08:31pm] |
its one thing after another, I keep fucking up...i never can do something right.
i need you to love me, i need you today.
i need someone to make everything better...i feel horrable.
|
|
| navigation |
| [ |
viewing |
| |
most recent entries |
] |
| [ |
go |
| |
earlier |
] |
|
|
|
|
![[info]](http://l-stat.livejournal.com/img/userinfo.gif){kind=small}
klm8jt's journal